Monday, November 19, 2007

Matt and Jacob, son of Isaac, talk over coffee, about the loss of a son

"He established a testimony in Jacob, and appointed a law in Israel, which he commnaded our fathers to teach to their children; that the next generation might know them, the children yet unborn, and arise and tell them to their children, so that they should set their hope in God, and not forget the works of God, but keep his commandments." This is found in Judaism and Christianity, Bible, Psalm 78.5-7 and is the connection between our two characters, Matt and Jacob. They are both fathers who are committed to the safety of their families and care deeply for their children.
Jacob meets Matt, shake hands, and after they order their latte's at a local Starbucks, they introduce themselves and without hesitation, imediately talk about their perspective families. They talk about the similarities in parenting and their appreciation of their wives and are both thrilled that they were able to concieve beautiful children to share their lives with.
Matt continues and tells Jacob the story of Frank and his beautiful family and how suddenly and horrifying his death was. Matt can not believe that even after all this time, he is still deeply upset and cannot talk about Frank without tears streaming from his face. He is, at first, afraid to tell Jacob the truth about the incident. He is enjoying his time with Jacob and doesn't want him to judge him harshly but decides to tell him the truth. Matt convides in Jacob and shares the details of his son's death but most importantly tells him for his need to seek revenge and how he killed Richard Strout. Jacob experiences quite clearly the anger and hostility that Matt still holds for Richard. And after a few moments, letting Matt, calm down, Jacob addresses Matt.
Jacob believes the quote especially the important role fathers have to teach their children. Jacob could understand why Matt did what he did but was afraid of the message that it was sending his other children. Matt's actions, according to Jacob, was reacting to the situation, and did not dealing with the issue at hand. The issue is forgiveness. Jacob talked about the works of God and a hope in God and the job of the father to responsibly teach all the children so that the next generations would have an understanding of the power of God. Forgiveness is a quality that God teaches us and that was the message that Jacob wanted Matt to hear while they sat and drank coffee together.
Matt was on his second Latte, wishing he could put something stronger in it, as Jacob continued. He believed that children should follow the example set by parents and was afraid that Matt, because he let his anger and upset get the best of him, was not the best teacher. Jabob understood the grief that Matt was feeling because he too had lost a son. He was separated from his favorite son, Joseph, when Joseph was 17 years old. Joseph was sent down to Egypt as a slave and Jabob found it very difficult to be comforted. Some believed that it was a punishment from God. Jacobs other sons admitted to being jealous of Joseph and sending him to Egypt. Years later all Jacob's sons were reunited and the family was together again.
Matt felt a deeply connection with Jacob after he shared about his own son and realized that he would have to get serious therapy if he was going to be as clear as Jacob in dealing with the death and loss of a child.

2 comments:

Tmart said...

I really liked your thoughts here Sloane!

Tmart said...

I really liked your comments Sloane!